Sunday, February 18, 2007

Sunday 18 February 2007: Sarah would like you to meet little Flo, the latest daughter of ex- Greyn's ex bass player Tom.


Sarah says:
There's Flo's mom Katrien and me an little beautiful Flo. The only Flo I have ever known is the one from that old show Alice about the waitresses in the diner. This baby Flo is much cuter than that Flo from the show. I had to cut this Flo out of another photo and paste her into this one with me and her mom because none of the three photos I took were very good - so I had to make a good one with all of us in it. It was great to meet this cutie-pie after all these months and it was nice to see her parents again and their new and lovely home. Seeing Tom brought my mind back to Greyn a bit and made me feel a little sad again but then that turned into just longing for music and a band in my life again, which is normal. Anyway - it was nice to meet this baby girl. So many baby girls around these days. I can't wait to meet my friend Erika's baby boy! It's been so long since there has been a boy. Well, that's not exactly true considering Greyn's ex guitar player and his wife had an adorable baby boy last year so there's one! But other than him, I hardly know any these days.
My husband, brother and father are out sightseeing right now. I stayed at home because it would be too much walking and standing for my slightly aching back right now. I am also coming down with a cold and a cough and just needed a day of rest again. My daughter is away at her youth movement right now and I have the house to myself. My dad brought me a bunch of magazines so you know what I'm going to do right now!!!

Here's my Post Secret pick of the week, which I only chose because it had my name on it and I found it kind of sick and funny. The poor woman who had to find this pubic hair of an ex kept by her boyfriend! That ain't right!!! Not at all. Well, I can assure you that it wasn't mine because I was married then! Thankfully! Guard your pubes women! You never know who's collecting them! And you never know who your secrets are safe with!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Saturday 17 February 2007: Sarah's brother and dad arrived in the morning with jetlag and napped along with her husband all over the room...



Sarah says:
My dad and little brother (not so little brother - see above above photo) arrived and were tired and they napped in my living room. My dad slept on my living room floor (see above photo) - for quite a while actually. He looked like a corpse under that red blanket. So did my husband. My brother later tried to crush my daughter. All very eventful. Then my brother and my daughter had an hour long conversation about passing gas. Very interesting. Oh my - as I am writing this my daughter just asked my brother how babies are born. I had to intervene and put an end to that conversation. My poor brother started to look uncomfortable.
Now it's off to the center to have a walk, get some sunshine to work against the jet lag and have a waffle no doubt!

Friday, February 16, 2007

Friday 16 February 2007: Heidi and Sarah and Yma bundle up with each other for big fat sweater day.


Sarah says:
Today here in Belgium it's "Thick Sweater Day" also know as "Slip on Your Sweaters Day" as described via this link, which means that in all the schools and in some workplaces everyone is encouraged to turn the heat down low to conserve energy. My daughter layered herself up this morning to face the cold school day. In doing so, she had some time to think about energy and consumption and what it feels like to be cold and how in fact we can just layer up half the time rather than run to turn the heat higher. It seems that these are the days of thinking about energy use and the planet and the climate and all. Just look at today's news about a new international climate pact.
In very very local news, Heidi and the absolutely adorable and lovable and ever-growing cutie-pie Yma stopped by and both gals had their matching very thick and pretty sweaters on in honor of Thick Sweater Day. You go girls. So we three cuddled up and had a long overdue photo moment! Heidi seems good. Still having problems getting Yma to take the bottle rather than the boob. Yma doesn't want to stop breastfeeding but she has to - and eventually she surely will but it isn't going to be easy! That's pretty stressful for Heidi and everyone dishes out advice and so much of the advice is contradictory and confusing therefore.
As for my news - well, my dad and youngest brother arrive early tomorrow morning so we're looking forward to that. I am feeling good still with just a minor ache here and there. I have many lovely weekends ahead and am trying to take it easy and not do a lot whilst enjoying these stress free days. I get three massages a week from the physical therapist so that's also to be taken advantage of! The first one caused my back to hurt but it got better fast. So besides a more tired than usual upper back and knee pain, I am feeling GREAT and stress-free and HAPPY! I love all this extra time with my daughter and I really enjoy not having days filled with stress and stuffing too much into too few hours! So I will soak this up while I can and heal and be ready for the world again by April I hope!
Have a great weekend and put a thick sweater on right now instead of blasting the heat!
Oh and last but not least for all you germ-concerned people who use computers and toilets - especially the women out there but also the men who carry wallets - read this!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thursday 15 February 2007: Sarah is disappointed in and has fallen out of love with Shannen Doherty...


Sarah says:
I have stood by and been a big fan of Shannen Doherty from her days in Little House On The Prairie through Beverly Hills 90120 and certainly through Charmed and up until her bad, made-for-TV dramas! But it's over as of tonight! My dreams of Shannen Doherty playing me in the movie of my life are over now that I have seen her show Breaking Up with Shannen Doherty on TV tonight! How very very awful is that show! I'm sorry Shannen, it's over between you and me! I still think you are very beautiful! I always have thought so. I love your scratchy voice and all. I like that you are sort of trashy. I enjoy the gossip about your fighting spirit. I think it's fun that you got fired from all those shows and stirred stuff up. But this new show of yours (old in The States but new here in Belgium) - well, it's just so so so so very bad. You still look great if that helps. I loved you...

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wednesday 14 February 2007: Sarah says Happy Valentine's Day (to her daughter who insists!) and wishes you all LOVE LOVE LOVE everyday not just today!



Sarah says:
The day started with my crying daughter because her daddy forgot to say Happy Valentine's Day when he woke her up and it made her feel unloved! So all of a sudden Valentine's became important in our household thanks to the lovey-dovey kiddy-pie. Thankfully I had thought this could happen and I had bought her a sweety-pie choco bar and also had bought my husband 4 small choco hearts. So all was well and mommy saved the day! So I babysat my friend's kid again today and came home to my lovely daughter making me and her dad puddings with heart-shaped apple pieces that she cut out with cookie-cutters. See the above photo and witness all of that child's love! Good thing I had babysat at a flower shop because I came home with a heart-shaped plant for my little girl and pretty tulips for my husband. So my daughter was happy again!

Below you can see a photo of me and Heidi last Valentine's Day spreading the love. My hair is so much nicer longer, don't you think? Heidi looks kind of the same as the other day - even after having a baby!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tuesday13 February 2007: Sarah is slightly troubled by some new unwelcome pain as Heidi passes the day with her pals Babs and Soph...

Sarah says:
So I went to the physio-therapist for the first time today. I have to go three times a week for about 7 weeks. I was given a massage for about 20 minutes along my spine. I felt fine going in but I don't feel so great now. My whole lower-right side hurts a bit. A new pain. I know that can happen when you start working on bones and muscles and all. In a way it's to be expected. The guy did say my right side was very tense so he massaged it out. And now I have pain! Oh well. I have to go back tomorrow again so I'll talk to him about it further and hopefully the pain will be gone by then anyway!
Other than that, a yet again uneventful day! I was happy to spend some time with a friend's baby who was ill. Poor little thing! And that's pretty much it!
By the way - as I know it is very exciting - I did finally sort most of my sundries out and have just one more bag to go through of stuff I don't know if I should throw out or keep. You know that sort of bag of stuff. It cost money so you don't want to just toss it but you have had for years and have never used it so why keep it and all. Decisions, decisions, decisions... And did I tell you I finished sorting through all my jewelery. See - already 4 things are checked off my big to-do-list!
Last but not least - Heidi's computer is down and that's why unless I happen to see her you don't hear from her here. Today she spent time with her old Wervik friends Sophie and Barbara. Maybe I'll see Heidi tomorrow! I hope so!

Monday, February 12, 2007

Monday 12 February 2007: Heidi and Sarah and Sarah and Heidi and Heidi and Sarah and Sarah and Heidi finally meet again after about a 5 day drought!!!

Sarah says:
Yippee! Heidi sms-ed me at around 10:15 am to go for a walk and we did. It was good to see Heidi again and so awake so early in the morning! We walked to the center of Kortrijk s usual and looked around and had a coffee and walked back by noon. Then Heidi's friend Katrijn happened to call just as we arrived at my house and she popped in. I had no plans for today really other than to find a physical therapist and make an appointment and to sort sundries.
Now it's around 2:30 pm and I guess that's what I'll do. After another coffee with my mother-in-law who is here too. A calm, uneventful day with not a lot on my mind. Good to see Heidi though and happy to report that things are going smoother now and Heidi is feeling less worn out and a lot better than the last few weeks.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Sunday 11 February 2007: Heidi is M.I.A. as Sarah gets theatrical on this double-movie Sunday!


Sarah says:
Today was fun! It started with a visit from an expat pal of mine for breakfast and went on to include not one but two movies with my husband! We were really only planning to see Little Miss Sunshine at the cinema but we ended up also going to see Babel. We were at the movies from 3pm till 8pm with an hour coffee and cake break in between. It was really cozy! I hope we'll make it a Sunday tradition with our daughter always away half the afternoon. That's the great thing about a kid getting older - you get to have a bit more time to yourself sometimes! Not that I need that these days. I always have time to myself being home and all! But it was great - is great - to have this little time to steal away with my husband and have our own little world! Other than a very painful knee due to nerves going crazy from my back operation no doubt, it was a really nice-paced weekend. As for movie reviews - Babel was very captivating and thought provoking to some extent and I liked the filming and storytelling style. No one actor or actress was particularly good or bad. Just everything together worked. As for Little Miss Sunshine - it had it's very funny moments but I don't see what all the hype is about. I guess maybe because I have a 7 year old daughter and know my share of oddballs that this movie didn't seem like much more than just a little ditty. A sweet little ditty but nothing more than that. I don't get the whole Oscar buzz around it. As fr Babel - I could see it getting an award or two but not for acting as there was nobody who stood out. Maybe for the directing or something but nothing more than that. With that said, I'd say go see both films! Why not! Maybe even on the same day!

Above is my favorite Post Secret from this week about despising Valentine's Day. I agree - it's a dang dumb day to be busy with. Those of us with Valentine's and those without are all under pressure to perform on that day! It's just another day. Who really cares. It's so freaking commercial - it sickens me how very commercial it has become here in Belgium in the last 10 years. If I were you - I'd just celebrate your love for this special someone every other day and have a huge fight on the 14th of February - that's what I plan to do! Tell everyone you love that you love them that day and as often as you can. Don't save it for some forced moment dictated by a calendar.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Saturday 10 February 2007: Sarah wants you to meet her little buddies RDW & MDW

Sarah says:
Those two cuties are very special to me. The girl is my "meterkind" (godchild) and the boy is my husband's "peterkind" (godchild). They are the children of my husband's oldest friend from his childhood FDW and his wife VDM. This whole family means the world to us! I had a lot of fun with these two kids this morning. They are like little sunshines!
Today is pretty much a kid-focused day. My daughter has her best friend over to play and she'll stay overnight. So my husband and I are having a lazy day with nothing much to report. I hope Heidi is doing fine with getting Yma onto the bottle. Last I heard from her was that it was going very slowly.
Here's some great world news! Scary really! Welcome to the new Cold War or as Putin puts it: "a nuclear arms race" fuelled by America's very dangerous approach... Here's the link. I guess this was to be expected...and really comes as no surprise. Just hard to hear Putin put it so clearly...

Friday, February 09, 2007

09 Friday February 2007: Sarah needs something to do with her time, that's for dang sure now that she has to stay home till April.....!!!!


Sarah says:
So the verdict is in, I can only start work the 1st of April. That means more than another month and a half home!!!!! I am so bored and so boring! So so bored! I feel good and have a lot of energy but still have to take it easy. I am stuck between these walls right now. I need to do stuff to feel good about myself and well, just to feel good in general! I still have those little projects to take care of and now plenty more time to get through them so that's good. But what to do with all this time! I have got to kick start something! I did start watching the miniseries of Battlestar Galactica yesterday and will try to finish it today as I know my brother is waiting for a review! So far so good is all I can say. It's got my attention - that's for sure. At night I have been watching the second season of the beloved series Carnivale. Heidi lent me hers and my husband and I are so enjoying it! So far, I think Carnivale is my all time favorite series -though I do love Six Feet Under too. We'll see if Battlestar Galactica rates with those two...
See! TV is my life right now! How very pathetic! The only good things about staying home are getting to see my daughter more, being more relaxed in general and getting to sleep a little later every now and then! That's it. I guess I should already be happy with that. I mean the weekend is coming up and I'm not even looking forward to it one bit! It's just any other day! Nothing special - except my husband will be home to so that's a good thing. Another thing about having all this time is I made some appointments for check-ups and stuff that I would have kept putting off. It's so much easier to get a doctor's appointment in working hours - so that's another good thing. I am searching for all the good things. It'll all be all right! One more hour and I'll take a walk to pick up my daughter from school early. She'll be so happy about that. I will too! I need some company! And I need some walking and fresh air badly!

I can totally relate to this excerpt from this article from the funny The Onion:

Unemployment, Wallace said, has enabled him to do many things he'd
never found time for while working 40 hours a week.
"For one thing, I've had
the opportunity to see some top-flight daytime programming I never knew
existed," Wallace said. "I also went out jogging several times, and I plan to go
more, now that I've discovered how great it makes me feel."
"I've really rediscovered the simpler things in life," Wallace continued. "Who knew the pleasures to be found in just taking a walk around the city? Or walking around
the mall for a few hours? Or driving down to the gas station for a sandwich?
That's what I did earlier today, and it was great, absolutely great. There's
lots of tremendous stuff to see at the gas station, if you just take the time to
notice."
Recently, Wallace took advantage of his "freed-up schedule" by
visiting his parents in Bakersfield. "Josh just showed up in the middle of
the day and surprised us," Wallace's mother Elaine said. "He kept saying
something about wanting to 'touch base and make sure the whole family's all on
the same page,' which I didn't really understand, but other than that it was a
nice visit." Added Elaine: "A full week was maybe a little long for him to
stay, just sitting up there in his old room like that. But I wasn't going to say
anything. Not when he's having such a terrible time of it."



Isn't there something beautiful about the above photo from this link? In Italy they found this dead couple from over 5000 years ago in a definite hugging position. Lovely!

And finally, for anybody out there interested in breast size in Belgium, the study says...

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Thursday 08 January 2007: It's snowing in Belgium and Sarah and Heidi are stuck inside all day!!!!!


Sarah says:

First let me report on Heidi. She sent me an sms because her computer is down and she can't upload. She said I could put her text message as her comment. Problem is, I now realize I erased her message! Sorry Heidi. Suffice it to say, Heidi is not doing very well today and had a horrid late afternoon yesterday and some difficult days coming up. She is trying to gradually stop breastfeeding Yma and it's really, really hard she says. She was advised to stop giving Yma fruit pap for a while and at a set time everyday to only give her a bottle. That time is around 5pm and last night it was just awful, Heidi said. Yma doesn't want to take the bottle at all and she screamed and cried for two hours straight. That caused Heidi to cry too. It's really hard on her. Sad. Very emotional. Hard to see Yma in this crying state and not to give her breast milk at these moments to ease the crying. Hard to give up breastfeeding. So she's struggling like many women do at this stage. It's a difficult period to go through until the baby takes to the bottled milk. The whole relationship changes too. It's a big transition. Good luck Heidi! You'll get through all this and feel on top of things soon!

I remember having to stop breastfeeding when Ayla was in the hospital for like the 4th time not doing well at all. I was pumping my milk as usual and as usual there was hardly any milk and all of a sudden there was blood coming out. There was no way I could continue doing this. I stopped right there and then. Luckily for me Ayla had been alternating from breast to bottle since day one because she was born 6 and a half weeks too early and stayed at the hospital the first month of her life. So I pumped and brought the milk in and when there I tried to breastfeed her which sometimes worked and sometimes didn't. Anyway, it was a battle. It was emotional. It was actually really awful and stressful and I felt so terribly alone through all of it and I felt like a failure because I couldn't give Ayla what she needed and because she cried from hunger and pain it seemed all the time. We had to go to the doctor so much. It was so distressing. For about 9 months straight we had all sorts of struggles and problems and a baby that cried all the time. It was so exhausting and hard and lonely. None of that will help Heidi in any way because we all have to go through what we go through and it is individual and nobody's advice or kind words or help or understanding really helps. With that said, the wisdom that I think comes with having a child and that sort of responsibility - at least for me - is that you can get through anything and everything - all in its time...

Now - to change the subject... We woke up to snow though by now it has stopped! Very beautiful indeed. Too bad it never piles up or stays very long here. I miss those huge New York snow days! As a kid that was so fun - sledding down big hills and all. Getting so cold outside and then so warm inside. I'll never forget the day when I was about 15 I guess in the early days of my friendship with Face The Day google hit Erika Dioniso when she and I walked to a huge snowed on field at Nyack College. Using our feet with snow boots on we carved a huge message for a guy she or I had a crush on (can't remember anymore) in the snow there. Then we were so cold and needed to get in to town to hang out further because what else do you do on such a day other than search for friends and adventures. So we walked down the really snowy hill below Nyack Intermediate School (not sure that school is even still there). At the bottom of it at the lights a little truck passed by and these two guys were driving it. We stopped them or they stopped when they saw us (can't remember) and we hopped in the back of these strangers' truck. We were surrounded by snow and wood pieces. I think we grabbed some pieces of wood to keep as a memory. Anyway, they dropped us off in town and we probably hit the local pizza place at that point and met up with friends. I can't remember further than that so it probably means there was alcohol (40s of OE) and pot involved later at Memorial Park. Who knows? That was such a cozy day. That I know for sure! We were such street rats back then! I wish I could have such a day right now rather than being locked in my house and all adult.

Today to keep busy I will sort through all of my jewelry. I think I'll do what my paternal grandma used to do. I have some jewelery from her with little notes she wrote about the pieces included. She updated the notes every few years saying the jewelry was for me and signing her name and the date. There's this one really pretty piece that I don't think I'll wear that I'll save for my daughter. On the little paper with it, my grandma wrote that my dad had given her the piece in his freshman year of Harvard and that whenever she wore it people asked her about it. She also wrote on the paper every few years that it was for me when she died. Well, now I'll write to my daughter that it is for her when I die (please note "I" was "she" before but a FTD viewer pointed out my bad mistake and I stand corrected and even slightly ashamed!). It's blue and it's old and it's sort of borrowed so who knows, maybe my daughter can even wear it at her wedding before I am even dead!

Oh my, I feel like I might vomit. I took a liquid vitamin and I really feel like I am about to throw-up. This doesn't feel right. You'll have to excuse me well I run to the bathroom...

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Wednesday 07 February 2007: Sarah doesn't have a whole lot to tell you today and Heidi, even less...

Sarah says:
I have nothing to say. Slept till 10:30. Got my kid at school and made her lunch. Had coffee with my in-laws. Did a big food shopping and searching for castanets for my daughter with the help of my father-in-law - he lifted and carried all the heavy stuff for me thankfully. Got home and put the groceries away. Ate dinner. Put my kid to bed. Almost forgot to take above photo of myself with pink Mr. Potato lips on. Am now doing this blog. Will soon talk on phone to a friend and then will watch something with my husband on TV. Then I'll go to sleep. Really interesting, huh! That's all I have to offer I'm afraid...

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Tuesday 06 February 2007: Heidi and Sarah wish Sarah's sister-in-law J.O. a very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very Happy Birthday!


Sarah says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.O.!!!!! Heidi and I wish you all the best on this fine big birthday of yours! For those of you wondering who this J.O. person is - well she's my brother's wife, which means my sister-in-law. She's been a Face The Day guest before, just click here to see! I'm sure you'll join us is wishing her a fabulous year!!!
The bad news is that Heidi and I planned to celebrate J.O.'s birthday by watching the pilot of the 1st season of Battlestar Galactica that J.O. and my bro sent me and it came out black and white and grainy!!! I took my NTSC Region 1 DVD player that my mom gave me along with a transformer and all the right plugs to Heidi's and hooked it all up correctly and it worked but only in faded black and white! So we couldn't watch it!!!
The good news is that I just re-hooked it all up to my own TV and it works and comes out in color, which means I can watch it!
The sad news is that I can't watch it with Heidi because the idea was that we'd watch it at her place while Yma was sleeping!
The outcome will be that I will indeed watch it alone and I will enjoy it and Heidi and I will have to find some other fun thing to watch that will work on her TV and DVD player!
Anyway, once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.O.! Have a super day!!!!!
And by the way, J.O. and NSM, you'll perhaps be interested in this article about how a ginger tea made in Belgium might be at a Starbucks near you soon!

Monday, February 05, 2007

Monday 5 Februari 2007: Love ... (Heidi's priority) and Lists of activities... (Sarah's priority) on this quiet Monday...

Heidi says: it must be love, love, love...


Sarah says:
I give you my profile because you have seen enough of my big pimple!
Cute photo Heidi!
Today it was sort of sad around my home. Too quiet. But I did get to talk on the phone to a great old friend for a while for once so that was fabulous! That felt homey and cozy!
I also finally went through all my make up and threw out all the old stuff. I have been wanting to do that for a long time. I cleaned out one of my closets and made a big pile of clothes I no longer wear to give away. That feels good! I went through a pile of magazines and ripped out pages for recipes or info I wanted to keep so I can finally throw away the magazines themselves. That is halfway done. Once done, another project will be to organize all the recipes and contact cards and all that sort of thing. Once that's complete, I'll feel accomplished because I have been wanting to do that for a while. I also want to clean out and organize all my jewelery - have been planning to do that for ages. Then there are all the digital photos to collect onto one CD-R for printing and the others for sorting into files. Then there are the rest of the regular photos to sort and put into albums. Then there are the millions of emails to sort through and the many to get rid of. Then there are those few boxes in the basement to dive into and to finally clear out. I have one huge plastic box to put anything of value and sentiment in. That's it! I am sick of multiple places for things! And last but not least, there are all of the cabinets and closets to clean out in the house. All these projects I have put off and put off may finally get done. Maybe not though. Somehow hearing myself write this does not get me very excited to get these jobs done. But it will be better and more fulfilling than sitting on my arse all the time! Another nice thing will be being able to pick my daughter up at school early. Finally I'll get to spend some un-rushed time with her!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Sunday 04 February 2007: Sarah looks like a Gimp in this week's anti-stress mask the day her mom leaves Belgium... with book manuscript in hand...

Heidi says: Sarah's mom left. It's sad. But she'll come back!
I am also very tired. This face shows what exhaustion can do to a person... :-

Sarah says:
My friend AVDG gave me a few different masks. I'd have to say the above one felt the best so far but certainly looked the scariest - sort of like a Gimp mask if you ask me... What a strange Sunday indeed. I hate goodbyes and today started with a very early-morning one. My mom should be back in Florida by now after along day of travelling with a plane delay of three hours from New York to Miami. Our house feels strange to say the least. My mom has been here since the 7th of December. This is the longest she's ever stayed. The longest anyone has ever stayed with us. Surprisingly it all went very well and all of us really enjoyed it. My mom was so helpful before, during and after my back surgery. She helped to take the strain off for me, my husband and my daughter and my in-laws I'm sure. It was just great and cozy having her a round and all of us were sad to see her go.
With that said, there was something semi-nice about having the first sort of normal day in a while. Just my husband, our daughter and I hanging around, napping, playing a game and eating together. Our house was so silent. The day was long. My daughter kept having little crying breakdowns but she's feeling okay. In a way, I think she felt somewhat at ease just being alone with only us. It's been a while and all three of us need to find and to feel that close family bond again.
I don't particularly look forward to tomorrow. I am happy I'll be sleeping in the attic for the first time since my operation tonight and from now on. I brought all my clothes back up and my toiletries and sort of unpacked and moved back into normalcy of sorts. But at 8 tomorrow morning when my husband and kid leave for their day, I will be all alone at home for the whole month. That sounds awful to me to be honest. I know for some that would be calm and quite and relaxing and all that but not for me! I just have to find easy things to do. I have to get resourceful! The kinds of projects I enjoy usually involve sitting on the floor sorting through boxes of things and bags and closets. I can't do that right now because of my back so I have to get creative. I'll keep you posted on what I get up to. I hope it will be some good stuff!
As someone commented, my Face The Day entries are getting longer and longer! Need I explain why that is?


Above you see my mom's finished manuscript with an unfinished possible cover for the book when it's edited and published and all that. I'm going to be reading it in the next month or so I expect. I'm glad my mom finished it. Besides taking care of us, that is basically all she did - sat at the table writing her book. I hope she finds success with it...



And last but not least, to be honest, there weren't any Post Secret entries this week that really jumped out at me other than perhaps the one above. Something about it is very moving. Don't you think? It makes me sad that one bad teacher or parent or person can see a kid all wrong and send such negative messages that forever hurt and need to be overcome... I hope I am a good mother to my child. I hope I fill her with self-confidence, well-being and love. I hope she never has another person ruin her... I hope she's equipped with strong tools to get through everything.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Saturday 03 February 2007: Heidi and Sarah are angular today as Sarah strikes a pose with frequent Face The Day star, fashion designer Wout Beernaert!

Sarah says:
Heidi stopped by to say bye to my mom. I did my best to hide my nasty pimple in the photo above but alas, I didn't cut off enough of my face! We christened my big zit "Jr."


Check out frequent Face The Day guest star Wout Beernaert. He's Belgium's finest fashion designer (mode ontwerper) - at least my daughter thinks so! She's his biggest fan! We went to an exhibit of some of his designs at a place in Ronse. If you can't go see it yourself (it's there until the 7th), the above and below photo can give you a little taste as can this link!

I went for just a short time and had to sit down mostly because my legs and back got terribly tired! What I see more and more is that if I am walking and moving I feel great. When I stop and stand and sit too long, I feel tired and achy. It's good to know. It just means not doing a lot still. It's a good reminder to take it easy still. I need such reminders often!


Above you see Wout and me getting all Vogue and striking a pose with one of his bald, pirate-eyed models in a snazzy blue suit. She needed some love so we gave it to her like we meant it!


And last but not least, above you can see a drawing my kid just made for Heidi of ballerinas striking many a pose! I think all the drawings in Wout's fashion design books inspired my kid to draw this! Thanks Wout for being my kid's idol! Please feel free to teach her everything you know!

Friday, February 02, 2007

Friday 02 February 2007: Sarah gets an after-operation check-up and feasts on wonderful waffles!

Sarah says:
Just back from a waffle feast prepared by my mother-in-law! YUMMY!!!! I think I ate about 6 or 7 with bull butter(stierenboter)! It's my new waffle diet!! I am sure to lose a whole lot of weight this way! Who needs miserable weight shakes and meal bars when there are real Belgian waffles to be had!!! All you non-Belgians out there have to try my mother-in-law's homemade Belgian waffles one day! You'll be hooked!
So I went to my back surgeon, Dr. Marc Deruytter, today at H-Hartziekenhuis in Roeselare for my after-operation check-up. All is well. I am still feeling great. I mention the doctor's name here this time just in case anyone googles his name looking for information about degenerative disc disease L5-S1 and "Lumbale Prothese". The thing is, this procedure has only been around for about 5 years max. In America much less. There aren't a lot of studies on this procedure. There's obviously no concrete information about how long it lasts and stays in good place and what sort of things can really knock it out of place, etcetera... You can search and search on the Internet of course and come to a lot of things all about this condition and this surgery but you know how that goes. It can make you dizzy after a while. Anyway, I just want to throw some more information out there to dizzy other people as they search for their answers! No - that's not true, I found a lot of stuff I came across on the net very helpful but I also found tons of scary stuff that stopped me in my tracks. So far, the results of my operation have been fantastic. Far better than I ever thought possible. For that reason, at least for now, I put my experience out there for some scared person (in the place/mind-set that I was in pre-operation / post-diagnosis) to possibly find in their moment of need! Sounds dramatic, I know but you never know, do you?! Here's a link to info about the exact type (Maverick) of artificial disc that was placed in my L-5-S-1 vertebrae. In googling just now, I just found this detailed video showing exactly how they place the Maverick artificial disc into the spine. If you are interested in seeing it, click here! It's quite amazing actually. I didn't even know any of that until just now. The video doesn't show an actual operation so no blood or anything! It took a minute or two to upload.
Speaking of googling, I am very proud of myself (IAVPOM) for having put something on the net that at least from google on my computer only comes up with results from me! Check this link out! It's kind of like my own private Googlewhack, though not really because there are three results and not one. Obviously I have way too much time on my hands!!!
Now back to my back... So, I am okay and everything is going as it should be. I can begin doing physical therapy now. I'll have to go three times a week for a total of 7 weeks. I must also keep walking a lot and probably walk even more. I should swim. I should bike ride and I should use steps a lot. I can only do everything is careful moderation for the next few months. Slowly but surely basically. All my new aches and pains are related to my newly exposed or altered nerves being teased so-to-speak due to the prostheses lifting up the part of my spine it was placed in. These sometimes painful and often annoying impulses should eventually just go away like that severe pain in my leg went away. Right now, as I write this, I have pain in my groin area and in my middle back. The doctor said that is normal for the above reasons. He also said that the heavy lower back pain I have had for all these years could have masked more minor pains. Now, he said, I could start felling stuff that was there all along but not as "there" as the lower back pain. Time will tell what is what.
As for other activities, I have to wait a couple of months to sit all day long at a computer, to sweep and mop, to lift, to bend a lot and to go on a roller coaster. But within 6 months I will be ale to go on a roller coaster again and that, my friends, is great great news as I love speed and being jolted around a bit. I never thought I could do those sorts of things again but I can!!! I'll always have to be careful. Hopefully I'll never have a high-impact accident because that and almost only that can pop the prostheses out! I also should NEVER jump again and certainly never arch my back backwards as the prostheses can't take that.
Obviously I do not have an infection from the lumbar artificial disc, but the chance remains that one could develop. The chance is always there but is very low and my doctor says he's never had a case of infection yet so that's good news. The doctor also mentioned the future, saying
if the disc is still in my spine by the time I go through menopause, I might have to take hormone pills to keep my spine as strong as possible as spines tend to degenerate during and after menopause. The joints under the vertebrae where the disc is have to stay strong enough to support the disc. But time will tell and by then there will be many new and even less invasive procedures! The best thing about the artificial disc operation in place of the more frequently practiced Fusion surgery is that it buys me time. Maybe one day I'll need a fusion. It is a definite possibility. But maybe not! This should last me at least until some new a better thing comes along!
And last but not least, I can move back up to my attic bedroom finally! Now that's the best news I have heard all day!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Thursday 01 February 2007: Heidi, Sarah and YMA have a very relaxing day...



YMA IS THE FACE THE DAY STAR TODAY BECAUSE SHE IS TOO CUTE, ATE UP ALL HER FRUIT AND GAVE HER MOM A VERY PLEASANT AND RESTFUL SMILEY DAY!!!!

Sarah says:
Yma is the star today because she's so darn adorable! We were all just chilling today. My mom cooked us a great lunch and there was no stress at all today for anyone. YMA ate a lot of apple/banana/ betterfood cookie, orange mush. I saw it with my own eyes! She was loving all those new tastes! Go YMA!
This morning I was checking out the last.fm music listening site in more detail after finding so many music samples there yesterday. I don't know who told me about this great site! Was it Nico? Tom? Mona? Anyway, you can find so much good stuff and listen to it. It's so exciting to have all this music a few clicks away! Check it out!!!
Tomorrow I go to the back doctor in Roeselare for an after operation check up. I have a lot of questions for him such as: Why does my hip hurt???? My legs? Nothing serious just annoying!
My mom leaves here on Sunday - so soon. Too soon! I'm going to miss her! She's been very good company. It will be lonely here without her. It really will! I hate these last days to be honest when you can just feel departure in the air. It creates a sort of dark feeling. Small sadness. My kid will be so sad to say goodbye to her. That's what's most difficult for me to be honest. I like getting to see my daughter with her family and my friends from The States. It is so important to me that she has relationships with all these people so far away most of the time. It's not a bad thing that at such a young age she's already an expert in goodbyes. She'll be strong for it for sure. But I know that sort of existential dip that comes with many goodbyes. Thankfully it is temporary but nonetheless, I know it well and I have seen it a few times in my daughter's eyes, heart and soul. That is the hardest thing about my living here. I don't realize it most of the time - only when goodbyes are happening - but it's not the greatest feeling in the world. Oh well - the nice thing is the lovely times we all have together and the fact that there will be many more times like these in the future! For example, my dad and my youngest brother will be here mid-February for a short but sweet visit! We'll set our hearts and heads on that and my daughter and I will be just fine! And then not so far after in June and July my brother NSM and his wife JO will visit us again! And in June we'll get to go to Scotland for ASG's wedding where maybe just maybe we'll also get to see our dear buddy Elf-Boy Fej! And then in October I'll get to go to Face The Day google hit Erika Dionisio's wedding where I'll meet her baby and see lots of old friends - so that will be fantastic! And then it will almost be Christmas time again and my mom will be back here again. So you see, all is well and there are such fabulous times to look forward to! Plus, life goes on here and I am constantly surrounded by people who mean the world to me in Belgium itself! See!!! I am an expert in talking myself out of the dark feeling of departures!!!

And though it's rare for me to bad-mouth Belgium because you all know I love it here, this sort of stuff is a little too much to take and reminds me how far Belgium still has to go in terms of tolerance and race-relations and opening itself up to change... Here's the link to an article about some Belgians refusing to be married by a black man - simply because he is black!

On the other hand, here is a link to an article that makes me proud of Belgians! Belgians use more than two times less toilet paper than Americans! The funny thing is that it's only because there aren't as many types of two-ply toilet papers for sale in Belgium as there are in The States. If Belgians used two-ply toilet paper then it would be about the same usage actually. Slowly but (or shall I say butt) surely, however, as new brands of TP are introduced here, we Belgians will be as bad consumers as the Americans!

Heidi says: I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY!!! Thanks to Sarah and her lovely mom. They cooked for me this delicious meal and they kept little Yma busy, so that she didn't cry the whole two hours and a half I was there! I tell you, it was a good day. Thank you so much, Judy and Sarah!

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Wednesday 31 January 2007: Sarah and her Flamingo puppet friend send Heidi their greetings on this very sunny day!


Sarah says:

Good news: back hurts less after going to sleep at 9:30pm last night and resting a lot. Bad news: Must continue to really take it easy, which as you know is very hard when full of energy. It would be easier indeed if I always felt as off and tired as yesterday because then I could simply just listen to what my body was telling me. Mostly it tells me I feel great since the prosthetic disc was placed in my spine back in mid-December! Other news: Meet my mom's flamingo puppet. Heidi is a flamingo fan so this particular photo is for Heidi. Flamingo puppet sends you its greetings Heiditje and hopes you are having a great day and looks forward to feeding you good stuff tomorrow a lunch! No news: I am totally loving the following CD right now: Johnny Cash - American III. Nick Cave's The Mercy Seat is just amazing! That is the first Johnny Cash cover I heard a long while back and it grabbed me so fast by the gut. The lyrics are fantastic but it is the way the Man in Black (Cash not Cave) sings it like he means it that gets me! You can hear a sample of it via this link. I also can't ever stop playing Nick Cave's CD And No More Shall We Part. I love how on that CD, Cave keeps asking where his nurse is! It conjures up such images of need. My absolute favorite song on that CD is called Sweetheart Come. It is one of my favorite love songs of all time actually. It is so very moving. You can hear a tiny bit of it and the whole CD at via this link. And now I shall part...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tuesday 30 January 2007: Sarah is out walking with her mum while little Yma is asleep and giving her mum some rest




Heidi says: My little girl is asleep (it's afternoon now) and I am glad. It is really good that she wants to do this as she really needs it! And I do too. I have been having a tough week. I will try to explain to you. It is bizarre. I am really happy to be a mum, Yma's mother. It makes me proud and complete. But the last week has been exhausting me so much that I had all these mixed feelings. This has nothing to do with how much love I feel for Yma. There is no doubt about how much I love her. But for me, as my own person, something went on in my head and I couldn't stop it anymore. I am still breastfeeding and I'm sure it has to do with that. I have always said that I wanted to breastfeed Yma and so I did and I am very proud of myself for doing this. I am giving my daughter the best, my best. And I don't want to stop, not yet. But since a week, I am losing my energy. It's gone. I wake up in the morning at 7, feed Yma, and go back to sleep, together with her. Then at around 10 I wake up and let her sleep another hour. At eleven she gets her second 'meal'. Then I wash Yma and let her play and hold her when she cries. From 2 pm on, I feel totally wasted and without energy. I feel like I lost myself. I don't find the courage to make myself beautiful, to dress nicely and to put make-up on. I miss my friends (Wout, Alexander and Katrijn) and want to do things with them, but when I try, it stresses me out because Yma is with me and she gets upset quite easily. I want to email Fej like we used to do, but I don't find the time or energy to keep it up. (I do miss you Fej!) I see Sarah quite often but it's also hard to do stuff together, as having a little baby doesn't allow you to do whatever you want. When we sit in a tearoom, and Yma starts to cry, I get totally stressed and can't really handle the situation. Then I can only pay attention to one person, and that is Yma, and nobody else can help me 'cause I am in my own world. I know I should learn to handle these situations without all the stress, but up till now, I just can't. I guess that is where my mum comes in. I remember her as a stressed out mother on lots of occasions, and now I understand why. You want the best for your child, and you would drop everything to make your child happy. My mum seemed to be able to live with that. But I can't. I need relief. Soon. I need exercise, cinema, a night out with Nico, to a restaurant or sauna or whatever, my friends to talk to... I need so much. And it's al so close. 'Cause within 2 months, I will be back at work, sharing my baby with different people who will take care of her while I work. I will have stopped breastfeeding and Yma will be eating of a spoon and drinking milk out of a bottle. And will look back at this period, and I will feel nostalgia. And I will think "that was one of the best periods in my life ever". By the way, I think my mum shouldn't have dropped everything for us. Maybe she would have been less stressed out if she would have had some time off from us little monsters... My poor mum...

Anyway, the thing is I am struggling with being a young mother and sometimes I even dream of my old life... Yep... There, I said it. Not that I want it back. But I remember how easy it was. And sometimes I want that easy part back. For one second.

Cause Yma stays. Forever! And that makes me happy! And now I'll get her out of her warm little bed. And cuddle her and give her thousand kisses! (I will get over this. I always do. I am strong, in my own way :)) )


Sarah says:
It's great to see you here Heidi and for you to let us into your head with such honesty.

I have nothing to add really other than I have a back ache that is pissing me off and making me nervous today. It started a few hours ago. It sucks. Other than that, today I got my eyebrows plucked. I took a walk around a bit. Now I will rest the night away. Yesterday I got my webcam working and tried it out with my buddy and frequent Face The Day Guest from afar, MS. You can see the result of our webcam chat in the photo below. Time for me to lie down. I feel off.

Monday, January 29, 2007

Monday 29 January 2007: Heidi isn't ready to face y'all just yet and both Sarah and Heidi could use a naked happy dance around the house indeed...

Sarah says:
Heidi is in hiding right now till she gets over a little exhaustion that's going on in her and I am wondering what to do next to entertain myself. Maybe, like my fave Post Secret entry this week below (which I believe Face The Day viewer ASG made the right call on), maybe just maybe a good naked happy dance will do the trick! Oh Calgon take Heidi and Sarah away...




Sunday, January 28, 2007

Sunday 28 January 2007: Sarah's kid starts her own Face The Day with her own Heidi and Sarah gives you the evil eye...

Sarah says:
Happy Sunday to y'all! My house smells like lovely grapefruits right now thanks to a burning scented candle. It's a calm day. Really no need for my evil eye - just didn't have a better photo. I have been enjoying good music all day so far! Thanks to Heidi's mentioning of lots of different bands over the years I have known her, I have become open to stuff I might not have delved into. For example, we all know Heidi's face is on the latest Devendra Banhart album. Well, yesterday my husband came home with Devendra's old CD called Rejoicing in the Hands. I am LOVING it! It's fabulous cloudy Sunday living room music with grapefruit scent in the background! And then there is the fantastic The Decemberists The Crane Wife CD, which if you are fast enough you can hear on Luisterpaal right now. I am so enjoying 3VOOR12 luisterpaal these days at home! All those great CDs at my fingertips to listen to from start to end!
Check out my kid below starting her own one day Face The Day sight with her new best friend!

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Saturday 27 January 2007: Sarah finds heels that won't break her back so finally she might be able to wear skirts and dresses again!!! And dance!!!


Sarah says:

It is not easy to find high heels that won't hurt your lower back. I have had to basically live in Clarks or Mephisto shoes and sneakers for the last few years, meaning with the exception of one nice pair of Clarks cork/wedge summer sandals, I have no shoes I can wear skirts and dresses with. Not until today anyway!!! By chance I just found me a decent pair of high heel Clarks shoes. Generally Clarks are more old-lady style, though they are improving a bit year by year as more people suffer from back pain I guess. Last time I was in London, I spent a whole evening trying on every pair of half decent, half stylish Clarks shoes in a Clarks shop. Not even one pair felt or looked decent. Today, I randomly tried on the ones you see in the above and below photos, and they felt so good right away! As you can see, they are made with a very flexible rubbery sole and heel. That's why they can only ever really be half stylish. The material also has to be very flexible so you get a soft textured leather, which isn't as pretty as a nice, smooth, stiff leather. But alas, it is better than nothing and now I am about 5 foot 8 (1m74) at least and that makes a great leg for a good dress! I just want to feel womanly again! Talk about self-esteem (see Heidi's comments yesterday)! It's hard to feel pretty in casual clothes every single day with the same sneakers time and time again! The right shoe, the right dress, the right outfit and KERPLOW! You feel good again! At the sales, I fit into a lot of nice skirts and dresses and long shirts, all which absolutely need a heel. Now I have a pair of heels - not the prettiest in the world but believe me, they will do for sure!!!!!! Yippy! Don't underestimate how a good shoe can make your day! Now it's time to do the dishes and then read a book for the rest of the day while BLASTING Led Zeppelin's Physical Graffiti! I love that aspect of being home alone - I can totally BLAST music and sing along. Maybe I'll even dance along with my new and improved spine in my new high-heels! (don't worry - I'll be careful and I'll actually wait to even wear these until 3 months after my operation just to be safe...)


Heidi says: hi! All well! Watching 'supersize me'. Until now I still don't hate fastfood, but we are early in the movie... :)) Bye!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Friday 26 January 2007: Sarah gest piggy and Heidi looks like she's had it...Even the upcoming weekend can't excite these gals for the moment...

Heidi says: How do I feel? Euhm, dead? Out of energy, very tired, exhausted, no self-esteem,... That is why I gave myself a DIY-facial. Maybe I'll feel a little better after... Babies are exhausting! But I love Yma! Always and forever!
I look forward to the weekend because I am not alone wih Yma but Nico is home and we can do stuff together. I love my little family life, and I cannot understand how single moms survive. They must have a lot of inner strength. RESPECT!

Sarah says:
Heidi rang my doorbell for a quick pic before she headed out for a walk. We both seem to be in annoyed and annoying moods. Just not pleased really. No idea why. Tired. A bit bored maybe. As for me - hungry (back to two weight shakes or one shake and a bar a day and one good meal - pathetic I know but I want to keep losing weight - just a tad more - and not getting any exercise at all isn't helping me...). Today the weather is also grey. When you are home all week, the weekend looks less exciting! As for my weekend - well - my husband, kid and mom are all leaving me tomorrow to go to Holland for the day and evening and I of course am staying home because it is too long a car ride and day for my back and all. So tomorrow will be me alone and probably bored. I hate to be such a wanker about it all but you can only read and watch TV for so long and it's not like I can clean the house or anything. I will take a walk somewhere for sure just to get out at least. Who knows, maybe I'll enjoy it. It's just all this quiet is too quiet! I like action!!!! If the doctor let me, I'd put on my Superwoman cape and go out and save the world! Anyway, despite all, I do wish y'all a lovely weekend!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Thursday 25 January 2007: Sarah tries her webcam out! It's trippy fun! Her mom finishes writing her book and welcome Erika Dionisio to Face!

Sarah says:
Yippy! I set up my webcam! It's a bit trippy and takes getting used to and lacks a good set-up, which I have yet to find. It's fun for picking your nose and sticking up your middle finger and acting like a kid. Speaking of kid, it will be fun for my kid. Fun for her to talk to some family members and friends that are far away. Cool - another check off my checklist of getting done all those little things I have been wanting to do but haven't had time until now - while stuck at home.
A visitor should be popping in soon for a cup of coffee. After that, well, reading a book I guess? What else. Not a lot of options left... I know, I'm complaining now. I'm sorry. I'm really bored. Come February, I'll try to have some projects I can do at home, which don't require lifting and bending and all that. Any suggestions?
Now back to listening yet again to yet another Sigur Ros CD. Heidi hooked me up nicely with those! Maybe I'll see Heidi later...

Later Sarah adds:
So now that my webcam is working, I had my friend Erika (generally known here as E-Rocker) on Skype and I flashed her a few times and flicked boogies at her! I pointed out to her that when you google her name you almost come up with nothing on her, which is rare these days in this internet world we live in. So I told her that I would mention her full name here and post a photo (she's been on here before but not with full name) just so if anyone ever googles her name in search of their long, lost friend, that they might find her here. I can remove her from here as fast as I put her here so if too many people seek her out, no worries! (that's a joke by the way). Anyway, please see below photo from my wedding day in New Paltz, New York in June 1997 with my best pal who I met when we were both 15 (20 years ago my gawd!!!), Erika Dionisio! Mrs. Erika Dionisio (recently married to and impregnated by Mr. Neil Smith) is welcome here at Face The Day any time. I will see her at her wedding ceremony in October in New York and I'll get to meet her baby boy, which is due soon! Well, E-rocker aka Erika Dionisio - as I know you never visit my blog, I hope that one day a google search of your name at least takes you here accidentally. We.....
And in final news today - My mom just burst into tears from behind her computer because SHE JUST FINISHED WRITING HER BOOK!!! Congratulations moeder! Good work!