Thursday 10 April 2008: Heidi is so so so tired and Sarah is so tired and that's just how life goes sometimes...

Sarah says:
I look tired. I am tired. I look puffy too! But I won't talk about feeling fat on here as much anymore. I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. I am what I am and I have always been this way and I have to just accept it and get on with it and not beat myself up over being fatter than most. Blah Blah Blah! Love thyself and all that nonsense! The first sun makes us all feel grand but then makes us realize our legs are white and pasty and our skin looks bad and we won't look good in our summer clothes and the magazines feed into that and many of us feel crappy about ourselves as we watch the pretty girls in their summer dresses taking center stage!
Be Strong Women!!! I miss my daughter and can't wait until she is home tomorrow! Last night was the first I was home all alone and it felt weird to tell you the truth! I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned. I had strange dreams when I did finally fall asleep. I have been having very vivid dreams lately about people I shouldn't be thinking about and whom I definitely shouldn't be frolicking around with without clothes on. What are my dreams trying to tell me I wonder?

Heidi says:
I am so tired. I can hardly keep my eyes open. I have to fight against it and it makes it really hard to sit here and do what I have to do. Still I will not let me go under! Here is some nice lyrics!

It's not that you're fairer
Than a lot of girls
Just as pleasin'
That I doff my hat
As a worshipper at your shrine
It's not that you're rarer
Than asparagus out of season
No, my darling
This is the reason
Why you've got to be mine

You'd be so nice to come home to
You'd be so nice by the fire
While the breeze on high
Sang a lullaby
You'd be all that I could desire

Under stars chilled by the winter
Under an August moon burning above
You'd be so nice
You'd be paradise
To come home to and love