Thursday, April 10, 2008

Thursday 10 April 2008: Heidi is so so so tired and Sarah is so tired and that's just how life goes sometimes...

Sarah says:
I look tired. I am tired. I look puffy too! But I won't talk about feeling fat on here as much anymore. I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. I am what I am and I have always been this way and I have to just accept it and get on with it and not beat myself up over being fatter than most. Blah Blah Blah! Love thyself and all that nonsense! The first sun makes us all feel grand but then makes us realize our legs are white and pasty and our skin looks bad and we won't look good in our summer clothes and the magazines feed into that and many of us feel crappy about ourselves as we watch the pretty girls in their summer dresses taking center stage!
Be Strong Women!!! I miss my daughter and can't wait until she is home tomorrow! Last night was the first I was home all alone and it felt weird to tell you the truth! I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned. I had strange dreams when I did finally fall asleep. I have been having very vivid dreams lately about people I shouldn't be thinking about and whom I definitely shouldn't be frolicking around with without clothes on. What are my dreams trying to tell me I wonder?

Heidi says:
I am so tired. I can hardly keep my eyes open. I have to fight against it and it makes it really hard to sit here and do what I have to do. Still I will not let me go under! Here is some nice lyrics!

It's not that you're fairer
Than a lot of girls
Just as pleasin'
That I doff my hat
As a worshipper at your shrine
It's not that you're rarer
Than asparagus out of season
No, my darling
This is the reason
Why you've got to be mine

You'd be so nice to come home to
You'd be so nice by the fire
While the breeze on high
Sang a lullaby
You'd be all that I could desire

Under stars chilled by the winter
Under an August moon burning above
You'd be so nice
You'd be paradise
To come home to and love


Anonymous said...

To save time, I've just cut and pasted from your 16 Mar 2008 entry.

To save time, I've just cut and pasted from your 4 Mar 2008 entry.

To save time, I've just cut and pasted from your 17 Feb 2008 entry.

Anonymous said...
A. What's up with Baby Hitler?

B. Sarah, for your next post you should assemble links to all your previous posts dealing with your body image. It would be interesting to track the ups and downs, highs and lows, waxes and wanes, ins and outs, and jibs and jabs of your thoughts on this, your most recurring theme.

1:00 PM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
baby POIROT!!!!
But I can make a baby Hitler if you want!

By the way, are you sure the most recurring theme Sarah has brought isn't hair removal, backpain, or lenses? Time to start counting!

2:46 AM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
oh and mine is nothing. I talk about nothing most of the time...

2:47 AM
Anonymous said...
A. But don't hair removal, back pain, and lenses all tie in with body image taken in a broader sense of the phrase?

B. Okay, Seinfeld.

4:17 AM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
A: 10 points! Yes you're right. it is about body image (except the back pain, that is something else and was very serious!)

B: Is Seinfeld about nothing? :)
Am I Seinfeld?

5:49 AM
Anonymous said...
Sarah I think you look FAB without your specky specs! You go girl. Let's see you in those great big sunglasses. ASG x

8:52 AM
Anonymous said...
The back pain was, of course, very serious. But I'm pretty sure there were several posts where Sarah tied it in with body image issues, e.g., not being able to exercise, thus feeling old and out of shape. It's a tangled web our puny minds can barely begin to comprehend. Unless, of course, Sarah assembles the compendium of links I suggested.

2:05 PM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
No time for links! I will say I haven't been busy with the weight issue for a while! I dream of being more fit of course but I have stopped beating myself up about that - for the moment anyway. And for the other things I am busy with body image-wise - I have taken action - which has made me feel better about those things. The weight issue is a tough one and will forever remain I guess. I did do something about it in preparation for my back op because I had to -- and I was miserable. Starving myself - so it seemed. That turned me off from ever dieting again. I am still too scared to do a lot (or any) physical exercise. And - I am LAZY! That's all for body image right now - other than the lense issue of course. Wink Wink.

2:57 AM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
And ASG - do you like the sunglasses? You have any you don't wear? :-)

2:58 AM
Anonymous said...
You know, in the U.S. at least, Paris Hilton popularized the recent trendy big-assed sunglasses that are all the rage. HTMYF?

3:35 AM
Anonymous said...
I like 'em! Are you politely asking for your big ass sunglasses you bought me in London back? Are ya? I will give them back if I have to. But I do kind of love them. They make me look cool.

11:36 AM
Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...
I'm not asking for those back ASG!!! I wouldn't do that. Maybe you have other pairs? :-)

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Anonymous said...
alright, you've made your point!
Point taken!
But you know, this blog is purely egominded, egotistic and egocentric. Empty and shallow.
I admit!

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